Hello me (: I’ve got exactly two weeks before my mid-year exams start! It is unfortunate that I failed to follow the plan I’d drafted in late January, which would have left me 100% prepared for the exams, had I followed it /: This makes me want to rewind time and actually follow it – it’s not as if I didn’t know I would regret not following it. I just didn’t follow it! Now I’m left with almost the entire O Level syllabus to learn in two weeks.
I’m sure the other kiasu people in my school are freaking out as well. But I find that I’m freaking out a lot less than I used to. I really used to literally scream my head off at my sister. I recall one time when I was trying to study for my Biology exam: I was sitting at my desk with my book propped up in front of me, trying desperately to cram whatever information I could into my head. My lazy little sister (haha) was lying in bed and reading some storybook, and she was turning the pages. The sound of the pages turning was that of some dry rustle, and to me that noise was WAY TOO LOUD to be acceptable, so I really… screamed at her “STOP TURNING THE PAGES OF THE BOOK. ARRRRRRGHHHHHH!!! TOO NOISY!” :O
But yes, I find myself less stressed nowadays. Which can be a good thing in the sense that I don’t do unnecessary things like burn midnight oil or start screaming hysterically. I suppose it can be bad too – like I won’t be scared enough to start studying.
Adding to my list of things to do, there’s still the darn D’Arts video which was technically supposed to be completed LAST YEAR (which is why I agreed to do it), but somehow there were technical complications and so up til now, it’s not completed. So I’m left with this job that I agreed to do, and which I would love to do had I slightly more time!
But I am thankful for the rest that my Lord grants me each day :) Somehow looking at Him helps me to feel less worried about every other insignificant thing in this world that I usually do worry about. It’s amazing how His love is always readily available, how HE is always and forever available, how I can rest in the shelter of His wings without having to work for it, without having to earn any of it, for who can possibly do enough to be worthy of His love? By His grace I know I’ll get through, even if I fail all my exams it don’t matter ‘coz my Saviour loves me! Shall do my best with the time I have left. Study for His glory, rest for His glory too 
My soul finds rest in You my Jesus
My hiding place amid the storm
In pastures green, You lead me down to lie
By waters still, I shall abide
I shall not fear for times uncertain
I shall not look to my own strength
Into Your hands I place my hopes and plans
My trust is in the blood of the Lamb
A crown of thorns pierced through Your temple
The blood that flowed took all my cares
What price You paid, what sacrifice You made
My life in Yours, Jesus my rest
