Wasn’t I the one who used to hate those emo emo kind of blogs? Hahaha, whaddya know!
I think I go to church for the wrong reasons. I go for people that I wanna see and talk to, not that fellowship is wrong; on the contrary it’s crucial. But primarily it should be for God. Been thinking about this for some time – how I feel all upset when I don’t get to talk to certain people.
Realised this also when my parents were talking about certain youths who don’t go for Juniors or Sunday School, and I realise, I don’t go because I want to, but rather because it’s just “what I do every Sunday” kinda thing. Routine more than desire. So what if I go for Juniors/SS? Does that make me better than those who don’t? Is my heart condition healthier? Are we that different?
Just talked on the phone to a friend who doesn’t go for Juniors and SS, she’s got doubts about getting confirmed. She can honestly admit she sometimes stumbles in her faith. Can I? Do I trick myself into believing I’m better than those who don’t attend church stuff just ‘coz I do? Do I not use my phone during sermon because I want to honour God or because I’m just scared of “doing the wrong thing”.
